On Sucky moments

There are times, ones with almost perfect certainty, when you don't want to think about anything. You just want to live; exist in a moment without the chaos of your brain in the way. However, it is usually in those moments that your mind is the loudest. Shouting at you everything you wish you could push away and push down and not think about, at least for a moment.

I need the clarity that exists in that moment. I need to catch my breath, I need to submerge myself in water for just long enough to feel everything and then come up and have it gone. And yet that is not how it works. Our brains run in circles, they guess and blink, they can bring you up short. They make you second guess everything and anything. 

To that, I say, fuck it (Sorry mom). Our brains should be on our sides, there should be nothing that prevents us  from having what we want, especially within the nine inches between our skulls. Nothing. So for every thought and second guess, I am going to challenge us to come up with something sure. I know I am smart. I know I am funny. I know I am beautiful. Because what we know is more powerful than what we could second guess. Take those rough moments, think about them, internalize them but eventually let them go. Holding on will just make it worse. Be sure of what is known, and let go of the rest. It will make you lighter, happier.