For some reason, being home always makes me more tired than I probably am. I constantly find myself on the couch, reading a book, watching TV or tanning and quickly dozing off. It has something to do with the comfort I think, knowing that I am in a safe place and not having to worry about anything. I am spoiled the second my foot passes the threshold, someone else is making my coffee and food, I can get a hug whenever I want one and then there is the simple luxury of not having to do much anything.
Whenever I come home it is usually for some sort of vacation, ironic because when I think of a vacation I am thinking about some island with exotic men and mixed drinks, it helps that my hometown is a Spring Break destination for others. Sunny San Diego for the win. I am 30 minutes from the beach and 2 minutes from several Mexican food places. No complaints here. Currently I am sunburned and blissful with plans to improve on both.
The worst part is leaving
I needed this chance to catch my breath again. I needed to remember what it was like to be a daughter and not have somewhere to be all the time. Because that's hardddd. Being home allows me to act my age, it lets me go to the beach on a whim, sleep in the middle of the day, read for enjoyment and not for school, it allows me to be Macenzie without any qualifying adjectives. So I am going to hang onto this feeling for a while because it's an amazing one. Smiles are easier when I am in the sunshine and home. I hope it is the same for you.
Enjoy the comfort, M.
Monday, March 17, 2014
Sunday, March 9, 2014
On Doing Far Too Many Things
It's Sunday, and today I have nothing in particular to complain about except for the fact that Day light savings likes to steal sleep and I do not, under any circumstances want to wake up and go to class in the morning. My typical week is far too busy for any nineteen year old college girl, if I am not in classes, I am reading (for classes), going things for my sorority or working. It leaves little, if any, time for myself, not to mention time for my friends. I am in a constant state of rushing, I get overwhelmed and sometimes become forgetful. My calendar has for too many appointments and to-do lists. I am juggling my sanity with my desire for constant stimulation.
So, for those of you like me, for those of you are taking on just a little bit too much, I am going to give some advice that I myself should follow: Slow down, take some things off of that list and be you.
It's as simple and unrealistic as that. See, I have always seen myself as someone who is an amazing time manager. I could keep everything in line, my eyes set on the horizon and all ducks in a row. But that is aiming too high. I have too many ducks. They have procreated and quadrupled. I am learning that can't do everything. I know will try anyway and sometimes I will fail, but with that failure comes the gut check that helps me realize that I can't do it all. I need to let some things go.
Taking on too many things is like an addiction for me, it will take a long time to break the habit, and it will tempt me my entire life because I like to do things for people. I enjoy being busy. But I need to take some baby steps in the opposite direction. I need to do less so that I can be more. We cannot be the best versions of ourselves if we are stretched too thin. We need to let loose the tension of far too many responsibilities. I am a 19 year-old sorority girl and college student with so much joy and passion, that sometimes I need to remember that the most important thing to do, is take care of myself.
So, for those of you like me, for those of you are taking on just a little bit too much, I am going to give some advice that I myself should follow: Slow down, take some things off of that list and be you.
It's as simple and unrealistic as that. See, I have always seen myself as someone who is an amazing time manager. I could keep everything in line, my eyes set on the horizon and all ducks in a row. But that is aiming too high. I have too many ducks. They have procreated and quadrupled. I am learning that can't do everything. I know will try anyway and sometimes I will fail, but with that failure comes the gut check that helps me realize that I can't do it all. I need to let some things go.
Taking on too many things is like an addiction for me, it will take a long time to break the habit, and it will tempt me my entire life because I like to do things for people. I enjoy being busy. But I need to take some baby steps in the opposite direction. I need to do less so that I can be more. We cannot be the best versions of ourselves if we are stretched too thin. We need to let loose the tension of far too many responsibilities. I am a 19 year-old sorority girl and college student with so much joy and passion, that sometimes I need to remember that the most important thing to do, is take care of myself.
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